Walking in the Light

5 This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6 If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[b] sin.

1 John 1:5-7


God is pure without sin. God is absolute without any flaw. I as man, I tend to forget who God really is, an omnipotent, omnipresent being. I treat Him lightly, always putting him in the back of my mind. I bring him down to my level to justify my actions of being impure and committing sins without hesitation. And I get caught up in the whole cycle of committing the sin through the week, then coming to God in repentance on Sunday after hearing Pastor Bob speak. The conviction only lasts for the day then I go back to walking in darkness. Essentially I forget GOD IS LIGHT. 

John states that we must quit lying to ourselves and live out the truth, as light and dark cannot mix. If we do not live in light, we cannot be forgiven and purified, in order to fellowship with God and the saints. During the counts that Jesus walked the earth, he forgives people and tells them, "sin no more". If I am to be forgiven through Christ's blood, I MUST SIN NO MORE. Yet I'm still repeating the same sin, struggling to let go because sinning. Granting there is guilt afterwards, but I have such a short memory, it slips my mind. Whether it's lust, deceit, slander or even murder [in my heart],  I need to change and surrender. 

I recently watched a youtube video during my research on calisthenics and it this guy talks about his testimony. Rather inspiring... He says even though he was so consumed in sin, he broke down and surrendered himself to Jesus. That's when even temptations of lust had a hold in his life, he no longer desired it. Supernatural indeed. He even recounts a person with homosexual tendencies, as he fell away from that lifestyle after meeting Jesus.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Lm47zVvYhA

Rather than accepting the fact that I'm a sinner and I cannot change, I need surrender myself to Christ and let go. I know I can't do it myself through my own willpower, but it really needs to be through the redeeming power of Christ to conquer even the deepest of sins that I'm addicted to.

Jesus I don't know if I can surrender myself wholely to you. Give me the desire to do so. That I can let go of everything and live without reserve. In my mind and spirit, I want to surrender to you, but my flesh resists. Drives these demons out of me and help me to live in reckless abandon for you. Help me to overcome my flesh and to live more in the spirit.

In Jesus Name Amen.