Childlike Faith

¹⁵ Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.”
Mark 10:15

It doesn't take much for a child to trust you completely. As long as you reassure them that you're not a bad man, they'll completely trust and reciprocate that love just as easily. On the other hand, being an adult I do realize that there is no such thing as a truly free. Whatever is given to me will ultimately need to be paid back sometime down the line. Even coming to know Christ and his free gift of salvation is hard to swallow. All Jesus ask of me is to drop everything, pick up the cross and follow him. This includes giving up my savings, my 401k, or whatever else I fall back on. I don't have much right now, but later down the line when I'm raising a family and have more responsibilities will it be as easy drop everything and completely follow Christ? I struggle with wanting to serve Christ whole-heartedly, but also to get ahead in life. My mom definitely doesn't help in this situation as shes always pressuring me to make a lot of money and live well off. I understand where she's coming from as she didn't grow up with much and sacrificed a whole lot to be here in the states. But does my obedience to my mom justify living selfishly and not living selflessly for Christ? It's contradicting sometimes, as well because I know my mom's was a 집사님, yet the way she influences me is very worldly way. Her reasoning is this, make a lot of money so you can give a lot. It makes sense, but will my heart be ready if and when that time comes. I really don't know if this is valid, as I know having money is itself another problem. Greed can take over, or forgetting about Christ completely. Regardless, I know as Christ calls me, I need to trust him completely whether he leads me to quiet waters of blessing or dark valleys of poverty. My identity should not come from my accomplishments, but rather in the security I have in Christ.

Jesus help me to live more selflessly. To give when asked. If you do bless me with material wealth, I pray that you would help me not be consumed by it, but to be a good steward of your blessings. Regardless of where you lead me in life, I pray that you bless it and help me to be contempt in the process. Let me have child like faith and trust in you always.

In Jesus Name
Amen