Not Be Burdensome

In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands. And his commands are not burdensome,

1 John 5:3

John states that loving God is to obey his commands. He also states that keeping his commands is not burdensome. Where am I on this? Why do I feel like obedience is difficult and arduous? Reading the word is reluctantly done only to fulfill the requirement training myself to do life journals. Why do I not do it out of love for Christ?

I feel like its blatant that the Holy Spirit isn't in me. The things I do for Jesus doesn't come as an overflow for my love for Him. I only do these things out of obligation. When I am deep within my sin, my flesh screams out in disobedience at every conscious effort I take to do something to please God. I need the Holy Spirit to fill me and allow me to change my perspective of service. One of that that does it out of obligation to one of that that does it out of the love for Christ. 

Jesus, forgive me for not loving you genuinely. I want to love you, but I feel like there some sort of hindrance thats keeping me from loving you. I pray Jesus that my love for you would be genuine. That I would boast in what you have done in my life. Help me Holy Spirit to honor God through my actions. Not of one of obligations and burden, but of willingness and love.

In Jesus Name
Amen.